Momma’s Inner dialogue
I’m glad that’s over with, but I have a long drive ahead of me. Tarzanna? Never even heard of it before yesterday. Sure don’t fit in with the “Five miles from home” rule I try to live by. Guess they don’t have places like this in Long Beach. Doesn’t make a lick of sense. If they have drugs, why don’t they have a place to detox them? I expect the drive will take me an hour, just hope there isn’t traffic. I sure as hell hate driving. Oh, the things I do for these kids.
Oh shoot, I gotta’ remember to add gas money to the list of what she owes me. Oh, and three packs of cigarettes too. Damn girl had the nerve to ask for a whole carton!
Well, at least I won’t have to worry about this one for two whole weeks. Lord knows I have enough to worry about. Locked up for two weeks, we’ll see what happens after that. I really didn’t see this one coming, though. Sure I knew she was up to something, but heroin? I’m no saint, God knows that, but heroin? I kinda’ expected all my girls to get in some sort of trouble, pregnancy, kicked out of school, arrested for shoplifting, but heroin? And here this one seemed to cause the least amount of trouble up until recently. No, I sure didn’t see this coming.
Oh, I’ll admit I suspected something was wrong when I got that bank statement in the mail, but she had good excuses. Plus I hadn’t seen much of her lately, but when I did she always wanted to borrow money. She was getting skinny as a rail too. And those damn boyfriends! She got so insulted when I asked if she was a “groupie” but every damn one of them is in a band. Isn’t that what a groupie is? Course she never picked a successful musician from what I can tell. None of em’ ever made any money at it anyway. Buncha’ amateurs.
She could do better if she wanted. I keep telling her she’s the prettiest of my girls, but she’s not looking too good right now. Hell, she kinda’ looked like a wet angry cat. Tried to get her to put on some makeup before I left, but she won’t listen to her momma’. Complained she wasn’t feeling well, but putting on a little lipstick doesn’t take much effort. I wear lipstick every day of my life, even when I’m in the hospital having babies. No need to look like a damn corpse when God gave us lipstick and eye make-up.
Well, I hope she gets her shit together and knocks that crap off. Get a decent job, put those typing skills to use, get some damn health insurance and quit adding to my grey hair! Lord knows I have enough to worry about. Damn kids.